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lilazngurl2264 (9:27:23 PM): im “degrading” myself. 
lilazngurl2264 (9:27:23 PM): LOL.

today was an okay day, well parts of it . ahhaha . i woke up , with like the regular amount of time i need to get breakfast and go, but today i made a double decker nutella banana and caramel sandwich. that took longer than i thought, so i was nearly late.

history wasn;t actually too boring today. kevin brought in his cellnalogy thing, and i spent like 10 minutes looking at it. then for some reason, the teacher was happy, so he let us just sleep for like 20 more minutes. and in the end we just had to give him 15 minutes of work. nice way to start the morning.

in bio, i ate my sandwich, shared some with andy. he was like , ” ashley , you’d make a good mom, but a shitty president”. hahaha , i still think i could be president if i wanted to. then we did nothing ! or well, we were supposed to work on the wordsearch but i finished :) so i just sat back and talked to kim and nicko.

my other classes were pretty easy. in spanish i presented my ‘evento especial’ and i got a good score ! (= but in PE , we had to do 2 stadium runs, and then after, i felt like, dehydrated or something, so i kinda like just sat down cauuse i couldn’t walk. boo. it was horrible. english was teacher-less. and we watched ryan do tricks on the chinese yo yo, he was so good . then i scared chrisitine . ahhahahahaha, oh and she was like ” DO YOU GUYS HEAR THAT “ like all through the period, ahhaha , dude her face was so funny when she discovered the sound was just the yoyo .

lunch today was relatively good compared to the recent ones. i actually talked and laugh with anna today. ahhah, we were all reminiscing about middle school, and castro’s class. helen’s too aggressive.

i have class today, boo hoo. but i finished my homework, kind of.
i hope it doesn’t rain this week.
betty and grey’s tomorrow! (:
halloween’s coming up. hau-hau-haunt.

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it’s like you’re this totally different person, and i dont know why you are, but it sucks . if this is what you want, then you win. i’m done trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with you. you clearly want nothing to do with me, and as long as you’re acting like this much of a dick, i don’t want anything to do with you either .

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the thing about fairytales is that they set the girl up for disappointments.

i had such a busy weekend, but i guess i have to get used to it . i probably won’t have a free weekend for a while.

friday night was quite relaxing. hahha stayed up for a whle playing thirteen with the usual Christine , Kevin, Brian, and Andy . ahahha , i won like 4K of my money back that night . ahhahah .

saturday i woke up early to go take my SATs , oh golly , that test is too long for 9 am. but i survived, and my dad took me to in n out , where i got an animalstyle cheeseburger and some animalfries to go. i got home, and i probably tried to sleep hella times,ahhaha . i managed to do laundry , and relaxed. i watched a couple movies while eating my animal fries. yum . then i left to a party , same old same old . the food was delicious hahha . i got home pretty late, but i stayed up and read ‘ the truth about forever ‘ . it;’s such a cute book . bad mistake, cause i feel asleep late, and i had a hard time waking up this morning.

today i went to viet school and saw jenny ! (= easy lesson today , so the kids mainly messed around . hahaa, staying up late last night gave me no energy to deal with them today . i hung out with James though ! his laugh is so adorable! :D even jenny agrees. ahhaha . so then , after vietschool , i went to drop my sister off at D&Bs for a birthday party , and went shopping around Great Mall since i was already there. i don’t remmeber it being so big . i saw Hao and Linda  ! hahaha , then i went to the grocery store . but on the way , i kinda started to doze off, but then my dad hella swerved to avoid this accident, and it scared me awake. it was scary ! D; then after, i went home, showered, ate, now here i am.

i’ve been so busy i haven’t had time to go get my nails done . i want to get them done for halloween ! which is this week ! i’m so excited, ahahhaha . even though i’m probably too old to be , but i am . :) i don’t know where i wanna go trick or treating this year though . i didn’t have time to catch Saw 5 like i wanted to this weekend .

anna tang has a horrible taste in movies because she went to watch High School Musical 3.
but i still miss her and i hope she knows that ! (= i want to make her a special yummy cupcake, just because. i must set aside some time for that this week , or the next. but sometime soon . i promise :)

anyways, i know for sure i want to go watch Madagascar 2, probably like the monday we have off . november 10 ? i’ve already scheduled it into my calendar , so i hope nothing else comes up. i have invitationals planned for novemeber 1st, (= only first shift though , cause next saturday night is booked too ! D; i miss being able to complain that my weekends are so boring and empty . *sigh .

homecoming’s coming up, i’m excited for twin day . me and christine are going to look so cute together as twins ! i have to be the better looking one this year . ahahhah , speaking of that, i have to alter my shirt soon. maybe i’ll do it after i blog . but yeah , no one’s topping us this year !
not even piano boy , or polo boy . ahhahhahah . silly, not like they can pull it off anyways.

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I’m so used to losing everything that I was worried I would lose you too. And I didn’t want to get close to you, I didn’t want to love you because I was sure one day you’d leave me or you’d die or something would happen. I just…I just wanted to keep you as the boy who fancied me and I hoped that I could just label you as that and never feel anything anymore.

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stuck between two, who do you choose?
the one that you love, or the one that loves you ?

the last few days have been a rush , now that i look back on it . but presently, the week seems to be going by too slowly.

yesterday i went to school late, cause it was late start ! sleeping in was great, haha. then i even had time to fix my hair, but then at school, it got in my way , so i just tied it up . (= i had donuts , and it was prettty goood. except i got sick after the first one already . ahhah thank goodness i only had two . (= then at night, i had to go to a class, and i was bored out of my minnnnnnnd . i have to go back saturday . sigh , at least i’m not bored at home, i guess . ahhahha . i feel lonely in that class though  ! D :

today was pretty boring . nothing exciting happened, and i barely laughed later on in the day . how depressing, but oh welll. at least i had a good morning .

then afterschool, on my way home, i wasn’t suspecting anything, but i ran into some piano thing . and then we even had a conversation that was longer than just our names. hahah , in your face. but then i had to go home . hahah . SIKE.

today my mom is like super hot – tempered or something, and she totally went off on me. and i was pretty upset, so i went to sleep for like an hour . i’m still tired. and hungry . i’m not eating enough. >:[

* i bet you anything christine is gonna go crazy after this .

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I keep trying and trying , but you gotta at least meet me halfway. it’s not fair when you agree that we need to put more effort into this friendship, but you know you’re just slacking off and leaving me with all the work. i can’t make all the ends meet by myself. we don’t talk anymore, and i guess i miss it . i’m just saying,  we used to be like this *crosses fingers*, and instead now, we’re like this * peace sign * .

It never crossed my mind at all
It’s what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You’re better off with someone else

It’s for the best, I know it is
But I see you sometimes, I try to hide
What I feel inside
I just can’t figure it out

Tell me why you’re so hard to forget
Don’t remind me, I’m not over it
Tell me why I can’t seem to face the truth
I’m just a little too not over you .